Im in Depression Mode again...

Well Basically..

Me and my sisters never had much. the only thing we ever had was eachother.
thats all that kept us sane thru life..

thats all we could count on.
we had no male role models. never had money.
Just our mom..

and our whole life she made us to believe that no matter what happen'd
Ever. No Matter what. We would have her
we could turn to her
for help
if we needed a place to stay
if we needed anything
if we needed to talk
if we just wanted to come knock on the door to spend some time with her
cause it seems like i havent seen her in a verry verry long time..

i dont give a damn what anyone feels about my feelings...

but this is real shit

long story short.

we always believed in her.. she would always be there and that was the truth

to us..

and about 2 years ago she met some nigga and married him after a few months

we didnt even kno that nigga.

we was like wtf? just force some nigga into our lives..

but ok.. if he makes u happy i have no problem with it. u kno...

but he starts to change her..

like all our lives she understands that we young and we gonna make mistakes
and make decisions that we dont understand...

and she was always there to help us through it and teach us why we was wrong..

but since he got there
it was all different.

i mean we was young we did shit that teenagers do without thinkin.
kno'm sayin.. but she stopped being the loving mother that she always was.

without explaining everything its that

Her House..
Our Home.
Only Home we ever knew

is no longer our home

we cant go to just visit..
we cant just go spend a night under the roof we grew up in
i cant go eat my mothers cooking
i cant go spend some time because i miss my mother
thats not there anymore..

i said fuck him and went over there anyways cause ....

Fuck him thats my fucking Home. I Grew up there..
Thats My Fucking Mom and aint nothin and nobody gonna keep me from
spending time with her

last time i went over there i got in a fight with him..

i havent gone back since..

that was 3 months ago..

I want to go home...

that place is like a safe place.. u kno?

i mean.. thats home..
the only place u feel comfortable..

and its not there no more...

we were a close family. like i said. all we ever had was eachother. and that kept us strong

but he came and broke up our family...

our family is broken for the first time..

and it hurts...


i just tried to talk to her..
actually i just got off the phone with her..

asking her.. demanding to kno why she promised my little sister this and that.
saying that she aint gonna let her drop outta school cause she has to fend for herself.. and she gonna take care of her..

but she didnt do it..

and thats my little sister.. i shouldnt have to explain why that hurt me and left
me pissed off...

we talked and argued and yell'd and she cried to me... which made me start crying..

i mean i may be mad.. but i cant take that.. it makes me feel like shit.
it hurt worse that i couldnt just go over and hold her while she cried and
cry with her...


but man..

i came here to forget it but nowmy wrist hurts from typing...


if u gonna hate save ur breath..

*waits for ChrisG4 to post a TLDR pic*

come on Chris, find a real funny one, the one with the pope made me ROFL

^
glad yall can find entertainment in my misery..

"thats a damn shame ppl entertained by pain"

Wouldnt even know where to begin with this one..... happens all the time to sa many families...

But without knowing all the facts and what goes on behind closed doors, there is really know advice that I can offer.... I can only give my best wishes to you and your peeps and hope your Mom is truly happy, even if it makes you less happy, as long as she never truly forgets about her children/family.. (you might have to think about that last part for a minute)

i have... many times...

its like i been sayin

i dont care how he is to me as long as she is happy..
but when he starts to exclude her kids from her life i know for a fact that this cant make her happy...

and

when she goes back on everything that she ever told us in life.. something is wrong.

Originally Posted by THRILL

i have... many times...

its like i been sayin

i dont care how he is to me as long as she is happy..
but when he starts to exclude her kids from her life i know for a fact that this cant make her happy...

and

when she goes back on everything that she ever told us in life.. something is wrong.

Again, without knowing all the facts and circumstances and more importantly, your moms thoughts, feelings and reasoning.... its to hard to offer any great advice.

Perhaps its not him, its her or mayby he is forcing her. I would never know.

Maybe she finally found someone that she can depend on because it was hard for her always having her children depend on her...

Maybe she felt like she already raised yall.

There are way to many Maybes...........

The only fact of that matter is (probably not what you want to read or accept) is that YOU have to move on with or without your mom. Thats the hard fact of life.

Again, I hope that things change in your favor and once again you are happy.

i want to move on.. but i want her to move on with me..

and he hasnt raised ANY of her kids to the age of 18

and she has 4

if momma ever did that 2 me i'd go my own way.. fuck dat lil nigga u aint even an adult yet to be living out her house.. i never had my father live with us, just my step dad that i lived with over 10 years and hardly spoke to him till this day.. but momma never changed at all.. she was always a loving mother, but this aint about me, just to let u know that aint right.. keep ur chin up lil nigga cuz momma will make u do the worse mistake when she upsets you.. let her be.. u got ur own life to make something of.. and when u do, thats when she gonna offer her love to you.. personally i would say fuck all yall.. oh yea, i forgot u got banned.. hopefully ur viewing this as a guest..

Originally Posted by ChrisG4

naw, can't see the pic!!!
I was anticipating this one and now it doesn't work...

oh yeah found it, other one was better, still kinda funny
http://i148.photobucket.com/albums/s...Bushnoread.jpg

Originally Posted by Throwed Essay

if momma ever did that 2 me i'd go my own way.. fuck dat lil nigga u aint even an adult yet to be living out her house.. i never had my father live with us, just my step dad that i lived with over 10 years and hardly spoke to him till this day.. but momma never changed at all.. she was always a loving mother, but this aint about me, just to let u know that aint right.. keep ur chin up lil nigga cuz momma will make u do the worse mistake when she upsets you.. let her be.. u got ur own life to make something of.. and when u do, thats when she gonna offer her love to you.. personally i would say fuck all yall.. oh yea, i forgot u got banned.. hopefully ur viewing this as a guest..

Damn that was some realness right there.

Thanx fo real...

preceate tha support

N-I-G-G-A ima get drunk and smoke weed all day

thats the type of nigga i am

but real talk all my mom does is bitch about dumb annoying shit

so i try to say as little to her as possible when shes around.. which is alot considering i live with her.